Sunday, 22 December 2013

Angels this Christmas.....


It’s Christmas time :) This time of the year brings lots of happiness, gifts and surprises. I remember as a childhood memory the importance of this time when a family in my neighbourhood would put a shining star in their balcony and I would know it’s Christmas. Children love this celebration the most. They are the ones who honestly believe in the concept of Secret Santa fulfilling their wishes. And as years go by it just remains as a memory.

So…Another year is about to draw its closure. Personally I am waiting for this to happen with a blink of eye. In my view nothing has worked right for me this year. Still in the last couple of months few things happened and these changed my course of life to a great extent. And this post of mine is dedicated as a note of thanks this Christmas to those two angels of mine.

I am sure both the persons would be totally surprised to find their names here. Even I am just as I realised how you both have played an important role in this phase of my life. To introduce my first angel – He’s the person I look forward to meeting everyday at the bus stop. As they say few people just click along well. And so was with him. The funda of travelling in bus for an hour to reach workplace seemed weird to me. I delayed this travelling as far as I could but finally it had to come. Post Diwali vacation it was my first day to travel by office bus. Not sure of the pickup point, I reached a few minutes [actually a lot early]. The place was empty and I told my dad probably we’re at the wrong point. After a wait which looked like eternity, a tall guy walking in his own world, at own pace with Infosys ID card emerged from nowhere. Huh! I sighed at the confirmation of being at the right place. And there it started. Quickly we found similarities of being MBA graduates 2013 pass out from similar colleges and lot of things in common to discuss.

I had filled my bag with a novel, my ear phones and lots of sleep. I had my next list of reading books ready. Surprised with this amount of effort? It was needed because I was at that point of life where I was making efforts to draw myself out of the sad love saga of my life. A break up from a 5 year long relationship had left me devastated. I started dating one of my friends but looked like I would create another mess and injustice. And so I had been trying hard, time and again, to come out of this. I was unsuccessful all the times. Finally with the start of my job I made up my mind. I promised myself in these last two months I will walk on this path. And so I was slowly trying to be with myself all the time.

I use to refer to him as my bus friend till I reconfirmed his name :P His name is Vikky with a ‘k’. Yes, it’s his real name. I discovered soon he’s one of those who will miss the bus very often and his life would seem to be unusual if he doesn’t. And I experienced it soon enough where he took a lift from a scooter uncle to chase the bus for around 2-3kms. Initially trying to be quiet I would sleep off after sometime and avoid talking. But he’s a chatter box. He would never give up. He would often interrupt my gaze and lost thoughts outside window bringing up lot of varied and random topics of discussions and I started to like it soon. I found these discussions better than trying to sleep or forcing mind to keep thoughts away.  And now I enjoy my bus journeys. It would not be overboard if I say I look forward to them when in an otherwise no purpose day [considering the ‘no-work’ disaster in office]

I think anything new in life keeps you going. Be it a new activity, new hobby, new work or getting to know a new person. He’s my first ever guy maarwadi friend with whom I get along well inspite of a lot of opinion differences [I think it’s because of cancerian scorpion compatibility:)]. Initially it was a lot of effort to keep myself away from checking my phone in bus and doing the unwanted. But with my new companion it has become natural to me. These days, I atleast, do not realise when the journey passes and we reach office and still are not out of discussions. And then these continue in our return journeys. From guessing the return travel plan of other person, to using office intranet to fix up return time, to forcing each other to take early/late bus, it’s been a wonderful start to these bus journeys.

I realise now how short lived this is going to be. Two weeks more and he would be on his way for his new job. And that’s when I realised God’s purpose of this brief interaction between us. The friendship has always been about bus journeys. Come the weekend and we would be in our own lives. So I am not sure how far we would be in contact post this, but you shall always be remembered as my ‘bus friend’ and missed during the travel time.

Yet to click one together!

I am sure you all would be wondering this is only a part of the day that is covered in this, what about the in between time. That’s where my second and precious angel comes into picture. She isn’t the one I got introduced to recently. We have been friends or rather ‘via- friends’. Her name is Aditi, can be referred to as teddy bear :P We have been a part of common group of friends between me and my brother. And that’s how I know her. But today the Aditi I know is very different, the bond we share is one of the bestest and the times we share is the most fun filled. Today we dislike when people ask us how do you both know each other – and we have to talk about the ‘via’ friendship. We have become friends in ourselves.

She also works with Infosys but was a part of branch which was 44kms away from mine. For some reason she took one month transfer to my office and we ended up sharing the same cubicle. Till the time she came to my office, my floor people would have hardly heard my voice. All my team members use to be on other side of floor/different floor. Since she joined me in my cubicle, the entire floor hears our laughter, hi-fi’s and discussions. Every day she has been brining something new in my life. New learning’s, new thoughts, new ways of looking at things and lot more. I have got to read a lot of new things staying with her. We are now known for our long walks in and outside campus and power naps at desk and in dorms. Engrossed in talks, we would not realise how much we have walked or how much time we have spent. She has been angelic enough to accompany me during day so that I would not feel alone. She would study or finish her office work after I left from office. At the end of the day when I would be back home, I was good to have a peaceful sleep without much worry.

She has seen all of me in these two months. My crazy side (which is at best with ) to my low side. She has seen tears in my eyes out of non- stop laughter to emotional tears. She has seen me changing and adapting to her crazy ways. One of these include the way we interact in washrooms :D We start off our discussions as strangers –
 ‘heyyy! It’s been long. I didn’t see you around. How have you  been?’
The responses would go on to fake onsite visits, the abroad travel with family and many other classy, posh and cheesy things we would want to do.
Initially I would react with the expression – ‘what the **** is wrong with you’ or I would start laughing. These days I pull it off and she’s amazed to see it.

We would start off from the desk because we had nothing constructive to do on work front. And end up spending hours together with ‘Away’ status on office communicator.  One talk to another, one incident sharing to other, one opinion to other, one belief to other…With so much ease I have disclosed most of myself to her in such a short span of time. Never did I have second thoughts in mind considering she’s first a friend of my brother.

Thanks to her we now somewhat have a youngsters group on campus. No more do I have to bear the office gossips or backbites at lunch table/chai breaks. I have people with similar thoughts to share table with and topics of our interest to discuss. The recent spiritual insight of her life has been mesmerizing. I owe it majorly to her for helping me in this not so good phase of my life. Like we believe everything has a purpose. And this entire turnout of events in last two months has been an affirmation of the same.

Again this is going to be short lived as soon she would be back to her old office. I wish she stay here for longer. I wish for her a special Christmas gift from Santa this year. Consider this as my way of thanking you on this Christmas eve teddy bear :)

That's my Addie  and fun times with her:)

Thank you to both of you for being the invisible hands in helping me sail by being with me during this time.

P.S: Thank you God for once again making my belief strong that you’re always with me, guiding me and helping my way out. 

Thursday, 19 December 2013

How much longer? How much further?


How much longer, how much further,
Working so hard, so lonely, so isolated.
Each day I open my eyes but my soul prefers to sleep,
Like a robot I am doing everyday’s regime.
No purpose of this disdain life,
Yet I am surviving with all my might.
Life fucked up at every possible mode,
I wish I could relive those moments which I  just let go!

Like a free spirit I want to be again,
Tired I am of trying to be all sane.
With boundaries all around I long for air,
Is there something I can do without worrying about here n there?

When will it stop, when will it end?
The fear of society that harasses me each day.
 Dread and fear grips tight,
Like a prisoner bound and trapped,
Emotions inside, tangled and messed up,
There is no end!!!

Just let it be!

Wednesday, 11 December 2013

Its 11-12-13!!!

Hey der :) How r you all? I have kept myself intentionally away from blogging because it would have been overdose of negativity on this precious space. I am trying hard to forget it Asap and hence was not wanting to create a memory here about it. However I do intend to sum up sometime soon but not today surely :)

Soooo...Its 11-12-13 :) Once in our lifetime calendar where numbers looks so perfect n sequential. My friend and me were trying to be super excited about the day but it turned out to be a normal one. Still I feel these small things matter to me a lot. That time in your mobile clock when it turns 3:33 am/pm or when I capture 1:43 am/pm. It gives an unknown sense of optimism that things following it will turn out to be perfect. 

And on this note I would like to sign-off and leave you all with a video on optimism:) 

Here's something for laughs :)

And this is my favourite comic scene from the movie dhamaal :)

~~ Cheers ~~