Tuesday, 24 January 2012

Teenage fall…..


With Valentine round the corner, I am identifying the couples on campus, who shall be writing messages for their loved ones on the scribble board. And will also making economy imperfect due to demand exceeding supply. I remember, last year when I came down for my interview. As we went to cafeteria for lunch, there was a huge notice board near the payment counter. It caught attention. As I went ahead to catch a glimpse, ahem ahem. I was in an odd situation as I was with my brother. We both read a few messages which came straight from heart. And you can guess the stream of thoughts that went through both the minds.

Blogdosts, I am of the opinion that teenage crush or fall is the most involuntary and innocent. There is a charisma that attracts you to the other person. You long for simple things.

a. A glance towards the person in class with eyes meeting at the same time generates butterflies in your stomach.

b. When you are alone you have so many things in your head to share with the person. And you go blank when you have the company. All you do is “smile”.

c. Just a “sms”  or “online status” or compliment from the person makes your day.

d. You are lost every time you hear a song or watch a movie.

e. You keep looking for reasons which are so obvious for anyone to interpret the feelings. In your insanity you feel the world around is equally insane.

The level of innocence keeps dipping as the age keeps growing. You become more materialistic and your feeling more lusty. It’s not a judgement but facts and numbers conform so. It’s only about confrontation.

Blogdosts, everyone has crazy experiences. There are instances which make you burst out of laughter for the stupidity done. While there are also a few which makes you nostalgic. To admit something on this personal space, I have always behaved very pragmatically. There have been instances when I wanted to give in, but my practical senses warned and overpowered. Because they knew it wouldn’t last long. Also I wasn’t anytime prepared for a heart break. I knew I wouldn’t be able to handle the short stands.

As my professor touched the topic of “affairs” in Ethics lecture, he mentioned about temper and temptation deciders of one’s moral strength and self-control. I am thankful to the moral strength embedded in which my family plays the primary role. Few things need not be taught explicitly. You learn them when you’re a child by observing people around you. For me my “Maa” is the epitome of it. Also as I grew, I came across and started relying on a few more special people, whose verdict, I consider final for myself. It’s not blind faith. But it is just that they are wise enough to take selfless decision for me.  If left to me I would take the decision in the other direction and it would be myopic.

Thank you all for holding my hand every time before it got too late.

P.S: Before valentine we have more important date to recollect. Happy Republic Day friends..:)

Sunday, 15 January 2012

A day to be forgotten

It's so weird how people react after a goof-up. And this day has been full of eye-brows up expressions from near and far ones and from myself. A day that gave me the smallest possible glimpse of "would be corporate world" where your smallest mistake can build your "downfall".

After years of cherish - able memories attached to this date, i would like to shift-delete it from the diary of this year. But i think it would be wise for me to retain the learning's from it. Unless i trip and fall and get up here, i shall not be able to rise tomorrow. I hope to see myself getting stronger and undeterred. 

Love You Maa for cheering me up at the end of an awful day..:)Happy Makar Sankranti..:)

Tuesday, 10 January 2012

Time of Flying Kites

Being an Andhra localite (not really), this time of the year, is most pleasant in Hyderabad. With winter taking withdrawal after its peak on 14th, the trees, the sky, the birds and the kites, together welcome the spring. I always awaited the Pongal festival. For girls, it's one of the most celebrated, which provides an occasion to get most dressed up. No no no, do not mistaken to think this as my reason for eagerness. I used to be excited for the reason that drove crazy the opposite sex, post new year. Everyday, i use to come back from school, college with eyes glued onto the sky. Any kite which has lost its owner, within my reach, i  would lay my hands on it. 

For the past few years, we friends use to get together, for a complete day out. In the evening, i would return tanned after flying kites the whole day.Ofcourse got scoldings from mumma for not helping her out in household activities including rangoli and mehendi. Hehe. People are surprised with my drift towards most of the non-girly activities. But i have always managed to find at least a few girls like me around me. 

This 14th of January, I shall miss all the craziness. Its an extremely pleasant site, to watch everyone on their terrace. Ladies doing the honor of holding their guy's charak and serving food to the innumerable guests lined up due to the men in the house. To sleep, you need cotton. As the hooting and the shouts and the music systems are their best and also extends late into the night. It gets on to really competitive, with one apartment, competing with other, with respect to number of kites cut off ( kitne patang kaate: Desi maza alag hai :) 

Nevertheless, hoping for a different experience altogether this year. Will get to see how Lohri is celebrated  from the north Indians. Kite festival is suppose to organised every year. And if nothing left, i have old friends joining me in Goa. It's a good time to catch up, with not much hectic schedule ahead.( I hope situation is same till the end of this week too)

P.S: Wishing all my readers an advance Happy Pongal. To my Hyd'badi friends, Happy Sankranti, and miss you all SBG'ians..:)


Wednesday, 4 January 2012

2012 - Thoughts and Desires

Hey there..:) Wishing everyone a very happy and prosperous new year. It’s pretty late I know..:) And again I am back to square one.  Classes have started and so have assignments. I celebrated New Year with my family over dinner and drink and happily bided adieu to another memorable year 2011. This year didn’t have a regular start. Neither did I see the last sunset nor the first sunrise. Ever since I came back from home, things are looking not so positive for me this year.  Lot of hidden fears surfacing for reasons unknown. Having kept low for the initial days, I hope to revive back with lot of optimism. And blogging is one of those ways.

No single Doomsday

So so so. I have always fancied and waited for this year 2012. Mythologists have also marked this year in their calendar. Movies made, pravachans( speeches) given, proofs substantiated to believe the same. I follow brahmakumaris. And in one of the foundation sessions I was told, 2012 shall be a milestone, but not necessarily have one doom day. According to the belief, this year shall mark the beginning of demise of Kaliyug. And then the cycle shall begin again with satyug. They say, not everyone shall die. There shall be people, who shall be alive or may be take rebirth, in Satyug. There shall be richness once again, presence of Kings and queens and lots of that. So start doing some good deeds.

Out of curiosity, what I probed was, everyone preaches to attain moksha. And here we are taught to do things to obtain another birth or a place in satyug. I don’t know if I believe in all of this 100%. But I don’t mind, till the time, it is making me doing some good selfless deeds.

Personal favorite for deeper thoughts

Life seems to be running in a fast forward mode. It was just another day which I called as first day in my room. At the end of this term, I shall have to pack my bags again, for shifting the room. While life is running, the vacancy in heart, of the desired list is increasing. Having watched “The Bucket List”, I wish to create one for myself. I would advise people around also to do the same. The assumption being December 22, 2012 shall be the last day of life on Earth. It need not necessarily have wishes which are beyond convenience and affordability. But yes fulfil all small wishes, for which you always kept waiting for right time or opportunity. This year dedicate completely to fulfilling the long laid desires in heart.  No running after career, study, work, family boundaries. Make mistakes with no regret.  I am tired of listening to the world and worldly orders. Give a damn and mark your footsteps only on the paths where your heart would be pleased to be on. Let us fly like a Free Free Free Bird.

Breaking boundaries:)

No Fear When Life’s End is Standing Right There..:)